Where Healing Comes From-- AbbyLynn Writes

Hello my loves.
Man, oh man. Life sure has happened in the past few months now, hasn't it? I've been through trials galore, and yet here I am, still standing-- or in this case, sitting, if we want literal terms-- and I'm going through life as it's given to me.
I moved to Arizona, moved back to Michigan from Arizona, lost my Uncle Earle, lost my Great Grandma, got two new jobs in Michigan, reapplied for classes at GRCC, and now here I sit in this coffee shop on a rainy Monday morning here in the mitten state. My friends, nothing about this journey has been easy, and I'd like to share a small monologue I wrote last weekend when I was with my dear friends, The Birdsongs. I was enjoying their outdoor concert when, sitting in the grass and enjoying their music and their overall presence, I felt something I had to write. So here it is.

Where Healing Comes From
an AbbyLynn Writes Original

I'd like to say that healing comes in with a bang. Almost like there's this big defining revelation moment where *BAM* you feel better. But that's just not how it works. Your healing is found in the little things that are slowly bringing the broken pieces back into one. Healing is found in the times you hear your old favorite songs on the radio in the car, wind blowing through your hair on a nice mild and sunny day. It's found in the way you feel when you're with your friends and your eyes light up and your smile bursts, turning into a full laughter that you haven't felt in so long. It's found in the family that surrounds you in your time of need, blood related or not, knowing that you--in the midst of your chaos-- are so very cared for. It's not a sudden bang of thunder or flash of lightning that shows you that you are allowed to feel better now. Because it's not whether or not you are allowed to feel better. It's never been about that. It's always been about the simple reminder that you are worthy of love. Not by anything you have ever done or could ever do, but because you have been given grace you could never earn. You have been given freedom you could never work for. You have been given love that you may have never asked for, but it has been so openly given to you, and I encourage you, sweet friend, to receive that love fully. Live in your freedom and embrace the grace lavished upon you. It has been paid for with your Savior's blood, and it would be just about cruel not to accept the love He is trying to give you. Because isn't that what you always wanted from the very beginning-- To be loved? Because you are, and always have been. No,your healing has never been about someone allowing you to be whole again, but by noticing your Maker's hand in all the little things He's given you to say simply, "I love you". Find your peace in His goodness and His graciousness. And that is what will make you whole.

Thank you for reading, my friends. Be blessed and know that you are worthy of love.

~Abby Lynn