What I Know

Hey dewdrops, if I may call you that. I think it's cute. :) Any who, I just wanted to bring to light a very special song today, well...all the songs I talk about are special to me, but this song is a beautiful song that I love called "What I Know" by Tricia Brock. It was in the movie "God's Not Dead" and if you haven't seen that movie yet, I recommend it. So why this song? Why now? Well today, I was put on new medication for my anxiety and depression and I'm hoping that this transition goes smoother than previous transitions. I've been through several medications over the past 2 years and it's been a horrible ride to just try to find the right medication to help me function like abnormal human being, so here's hoping this next medication is the right one for me!

What I Know by: Tricia Brock

It’s been another day when it seems like faith eludes me
Everything’s been so confusing
Fear got the best of me
Now I’m lying here worried about tomorrow
‘cause the weight of everything I don’t know
Is so heavy I can’t sleep

But the truth remains the same
Even when I don’t know what to pray

But what I know
Is You, my God are real
No matter how I feel
You’ve never let me go
And what I know
Is there will never be a day
You aren’t just a breath away
And through it all I’ve gotta hold
To what I know

I could throw my fist in the air demanding answers
But in spite of all the questions
I’m still giving You my life
And if it doesn’t turn out like I think it should
It doesn’t change the fact You’re always good
Your ways are higher than mine

And the truth remains the same
Even when I don’t know what to pray

But what I know
Is You, my God are real
No matter how I feel
You’ve never let me go
And what I know
Is there will never be a day
You aren’t just a breath away
And through it all I’ve gotta hold

To love that’s never failing
To hope that keeps on saying
“carry on”, “carry on”

What I know
Is You, my God are real
No matter how I feel
You’ve never let me go
And what I know
Is there will never be a day
You aren’t just a breath away
And through it all I’ve gotta hold
To what I know

To me, the whole song has a very simple message. Our God is real NO MATTER WHAT. No matter our trials, no matter our pain, no matter our scars, or tears, or fears. God. Is. Real. Through everything.
Now let's look at both of the verses together.

V1: It’s been another day when it seems like faith eludes me
Everything’s been so confusing
Fear got the best of me
Now I’m lying here worried about tomorrow
‘cause the weight of everything I don’t know
Is so heavy I can’t sleep

But the truth remains the same
Even when I don’t know what to pray

V2: I could throw my fist in the air demanding answers
But in spite of all the questions
I’m still giving You my life
And if it doesn’t turn out like I think it should
It doesn’t change the fact You’re always good
Your ways are higher than mine

And the truth remains the same
Even when I don’t know what to pray

I've been feeling these verses a lot lately. Just being caught in a time of low and failing faith, so worried about tomorrow and what's in store that you can't even get sleep at night. But something I've learned and continue to learn--and this is coming from someone with anxiety-- worry gets you no where. After all, Philippians 4:6-7 says "Do not worry about anything, instead pray about everything, tell God what you need and thank Him for all that He has given you. Then you will experience God's peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guards your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus." Isn't that something? Do not worry about ANYTHING, instead pray about EVERYTHING. You understand that? I know I struggle with it. Go to God before you even think about worrying and he will give you peace in your heart. A lot easier said than done, I know, but do the best you can. My sister Lexi once told me that the best way you can show God love is through your obedience to Him, and so read His word and live in His ways to the best of your abilities. He already knows you're not perfect, and remember that when you make mistakes, He'll still love you either way.

Another thing that gets me most about these two verses is verse two about demanding answers, and saying how even in the questions, she's still giving God her life and trusting Him with that. That's me right now. I could throw my fist in the air demanding answers from God about my depression and anxiety and yet, I'd like to live in the way of turning to God and giving him my life. However, once again that is easier said than done. I get so frustrated with what's wrong with me sometimes, all I do is get mad and ask God "why?" So the best thing I can do is, in the midst of my frustration, ask God for peace. Rather than demanding answers for everything, ask God for peace, and trust that He will take care of you through it all.

Now the chorus and bridge... 

But what I know
Is You, my God are real
No matter how I feel
You’ve never let me go
And what I know
Is there will never be a day
You aren’t just a breath away
And through it all I’ve gotta hold

To love that’s never failing
To hope that keeps on saying
“carry on”, “carry on”

This chorus is not only beautiful in sound, but beautiful in it's words. It's beautiful in its truth that it displays. No matter how we feel or what we are dealing with, that doesn't change the fact that OUR GOD IS REAL. He will never let go of us and there will never be a time where he isn't more than just a prayer away from us to help us when we need him. No matter what we've got to hold to this love and this hope that tells us to keep going and tells us to carry on. We need to hold to what we know to be true. and in the midst of lies that we deal with all around us, we need to know that our God is real. Our God is here. Our God is love. And He will NEVER leave us. This is the God we believe in.

Remember, God is good all the time...and all the time, God is good.

I hope you enjoyed this post! Have a nice night, lovelies.
~AbbyLynn