Hi, friends. Today I wanted to talk about something that's been on my heart recently. Lately I've noticed that I have a big need to be around other people more so than usual because I've had this growing sense of loneliness. While pondering what could be causing this increasing loneliness, I discovered a note on my phone. I wrote it sometime last year in the summer of 2018 and I can't quite remember exactly what spurred on this idea, but it was about a similar sense of loneliness to what I've been feeling recently.
"I need to know how to be alone without being lonely.
I need to know how to live with you as my One and only."
I was thinking on this concept and it reminded me of a song by one of my favorite bands, Hawk Nelson. The song is called "Only You", and it's a beautiful description of the fact that we can search this whole world throughout our lives, but only Jesus is going to be able to satisfy our souls the way we need.
I absolutely love the whole song, so picking my "favorite part" is literally impossible because each part has a different meaning and touches my heart a certain way. But here's what stood out to me the most I guess:
"I could search down here for the rest of my life
And this one thing is all that I'd find:
That only You can fill my heart the way You do
Only You can take what's worn and make it new
So I'll take all these broken dreams and petty things
Replace them with something that's true
I'll take 'em replace them with You."
After soaking in these lyrics and rediscovering my own written words, I feel like I've found the source of my recent loneliness. I've noticed that I'm constantly in search of something to fill me up, keep me company, or be present at all times, all the while forgetting that Jesus should be what fills me. Jesus will keep me company when I need it. Jesus is present at all times. I've been so busy searching for human satisfaction and fulfillment that I've missed the fact that the most satisfying fulfillment, company, and presence has always been there just trying to be with me from the start.
I have a mission, my friends. I want to take the time to run to Jesus daily. I have this ever present loneliness that has been recently growing and I'm aware that, after a lot of wondering and tough realizations, only He can fill my heart. Not one single person on this earth can ever "fix" me or fill the emptiness that lies deep in my heart. That's why I'm so grateful to have a Savior who longs to fill what I'm missing in my life. I spend so much time looking for company from others at all times, but I have Jesus readily available at all times. I strive to know Him more, and I rest in the fact that He just wants to spend time with me.
I'll leave you with one more lovely quote I found that sums up what I've learned about seeking fulfillment and satisfaction through anything but Jesus.
"It's all about where you run to fill yourself up when you're empty."
Fill your cup with the right things, friends. Be blessed.
~AbbyLynn
